It's a Girl...

I can say, finally!

Finally she's out.

After being in my tummy for 40 weeks + 4 days... She's out in this world.

I can say that it was a long process~

Here's the journey in giving birth to my daughter...

Doctor estimated that I will give birth on 29th November 2013. So, as a first-time parents-to be, Mr. Imam and I was so excited. We even expected her to be out earlier, as most first pregnancy it will due 2 to 3 weeks earlier. However, looks like our daughter refused to be November's baby.

And so, I had my check-up on 28th November 2013. Doctor asked few routine questions; how am I doing, is the baby active, etc. My answer to the activeness of my baby was lesser since few days, and straight away   Doctor gave me options either to have induction or wait, the risk for waiting is baby may die. And that was it! That was how he gave options. Plus, my cervix is yet to be dilated. The hospital scheduled for another appointment on 2nd December 2013.

We decided to wait. It was a mental and emotional waiting session for us.

During the waiting period we tried so many ways in order to make me dilated my cervix, from acupuncture pressure, walking around, and exercise. We tried all.

2nd December 2013 - 0950hrs
Reached hospital for my appointment. Did my routine check, went for Ultrasound scan, and next station to get CTG scan (scanning for baby's heartbeat). And after all that done, we finally head to Doctor's room to hear the verdict AT 1155hrs.

Again my cervix is not dilated yet, it was only open up to 1cm. In order for labour, the cervix needs to be opened up / dilated till 10cm. So, the Doctor gave me an option either to induce or wait. This time around, Doctor Candice at least explained what to expect if we choose to wait again. The reasons are; baby might poop inside and accidentally eat the waste which may be toxic to the baby, and insufficient supply of nutrients to the baby because placenta can only provide the nutrients up till 10 months.

So, this time around we chose to induce. One of the reason is that both parents are so eager.

Process for the ward arrangement took almost few hours to be admitted.

Finally at around 1730hrs I am warded. Family members were around to keep me company and stayed till visiting hours end at 2100hrs.

Now just left me with Mr. Imam to wait till 2200hrs for my first tablet induction.

CTG Scan was done first for one hour to monitor the baby's heartbeat. Next the tablet was induced in my cervix, and next we need to wait for 2 hours for the result. So, I was pushed back to the ward at around 0230 hours on 3rd December 2013.

Started to feel contractions at every half an hour. Since it's still bearable, I just stay at my bed.

3rd December 2013 - 0430hrs
Nurse came to check on me and was surprised to look at my contractions. She asked whether am I in pain, so I said I can bear it. But then, the nurse stated that I were to be sent to Delivery Suite in case I can't bear the pain I can just ask for pain relief there. And I just obliged.

0445hrs
Reached Delivery Suite. Felt that there's a discharge there, and it was actually blood. Contractions is still bearable even though it is coming at every half an hour.

0545hrs
Another tablet was induced. Last check on my cervix that it is not even 2cm dilated. Frustrating feeling.

0830hrs
The contractions started to bother me. Can't bear it. Decided to give in to the gas mask. And yet my cervix refused to open up. Still at 1-2cm. They scheduled me for another induction at 12pm. So I have another 6 hours to go for my cervix to be dilated.

1015hrs
Felt the urge to push. Nurse came to check and I already dilated at 4cm. She was surprised on my fast progression. And started to rush in preparing all the necessities. At around 1100hrs, I get the urge to push getting harder. Check again on my cervix I have dilated at 8cm. Doctor started to come in, nurses started to give encouraging words. I was in excruciating pain! Mr. Imam did not stop in giving me support.

1210hrs
I felt relieved. Finally something is out from my vagina. Felt like you have successfully released a constipated "SHIT" ever. Fuuhhh~

After going through the process, I appreciate my husband more. He is there during the process and have seen the worst side of me. It was a stressful and yet there's funny experiences. Which shall be kept just the 2 of us~

Picture dated on 10/12/13

Presenting Nur 'Aisy Binte Muhammad Johan. The baby that we have been waiting for.

Its a girl. No wait. A boy. Ermm~

Insya Allah this time around I manage to complete a month Ramadhan. Thank you Allah, for the strength you have given me... And thank you baby for cooperating well with Ibu :)

It has been a great and awesome experience thus far. Excluding the throwing up part. I didn't experience morning sickness much. Only when my stomach can't accept the food, I will tend to throw up. And during the first trimester, my stomach, seems not accepting Malay dishes... Only western and finger foods. Maybe that's one of the reason I didn't gain much as I ate a little and threw up.

My baby bump at 22 weeks young... Yup small! Today I am in my 23 weeks 4 days coming to 6 months, it is not clearly visible that I am a pregnant lady. Haha!

But so far, Alhamdulillah the journey has been smooth.

And I won't forget how Mr. Imam reacted when he first felt baby first kick. It felt like butterflies tickling you from the inside - something punching and trying to push from the inside. Somehow, baby can hear you and give responses when you are communicating with them. At night before sleep, Mr. Imam will read some Surah for baby and that's where baby will actively respond with kicking, stretching, somersaulting, etc.

Scanning to know the gender... Somehow, baby too shy to show -_- and the therapist can't confidently says either its a boy or a girl. 

For now, I don't want to think on how the delivery gonna be like. I shall just enjoy all 3 trimesters...

Missing...

"It is either you missed someone or that someone misses you..."

That was the reply I received from Mr. Imam when I told him about the dream I had last night. Yup, it was a sudden to see that someone's face in my dream.

I don't wish to find out who misses who... Am I? Really?

The journey begins...

Wow~ feels like I have abandoned this blog. The last updates was in December 2012, and that time I was so busy with my wedding preparations. And after that I find reasons to updates. Or simply by just being lazy.

I have tons and tons of updates and things to share here. Let's just start slow...

12 & 13 January 2013 - The Wedding

Masya Allah! I am so grateful to have sucha wonderful loving family members who are always there for me to support in every single things I do. The events went smoothly with assistance from both parents and siblings, and what makes me extra emotionally is that my aunties and cousins sacrificed their sleeping time to "rewang" on the Saturday's night.

Started off with my Henna night on Thursday. I got my henna done by my elder sis, the best part all my bridesmaids were there to get some henna done on their palms and hands too! Oh, my cousin, Siti, came down too~ and yup Fash! I can still remember you want a "Princess" henna.

And finally, the day I've been waiting for arrived. The solemnization was an emotional moments for me. I didn't get to meet with Mr. Fiance two weeks before the wedding, we were quarantined by both families. And it's a good feeling actually, I get the chance to fall in love with him again when I saw him seating and waiting for the Naib Qadi to arrive. Melting~

Alhamdulillah... With just one time, I became his wife.

We had fun during the two days event. Outdoor photo-shoot with our bridesmaids & best man. Overall, I am just contented with;

Ruby Rashid Catering Services - my aunt who is a cook commented on the food, if the food is okay and nice to her, and yup it turns out good. Too bad~ I didn't get the chance to taste it.

RH Bridal & Decor - my decor is just how I imagined it to be. White garden with a touch of maroon roses. Nicely done. And I'm just so satisfied with my MUA and dresses.

Pancairama Classic Karaoke & Performance - Oh my goodness! They are awesome people! Talented and know what to do. Never felt disappointed hiring them to spice up the event.

The journey begins...

I am treasuring every single moments I get to spend with him. And Alhamdulillah after a month and a half the test shows positive. Another new journey starts. I would not want to trade him with any other man...

For the rest of my life... I will remember my responsibility as a wife to you for as long as we live.

Assalamu'alaikum Cinta~

Something to our names...

Mr. Imam and I does not earn a five digits salary every month. However we are stable enough to survive and live well in Singapore. Since Singapore is ranked Top 10 for Most Expensive City! Fuuhhh~

Every wife would love to live a dreamy life as a Tai-Tai. I am not excluded. But I learned to live the hard way on the difficulties that people's face in life. So now, living a life as a Tai-Tai is not in my current list. I'd rather see that both of us can enjoy and spend our earnings and feel contented with it. What people wants and needs does not equivalent to what we need.

But here I can proudly say that, we have a 4-rooms HDB Flat to our names that will be ready in 2014. And Alhamdulillah we managed to buy our own car, to our names. A gift to my future husband. A surprise for him! His dream car, Mitsubishi Lancer EX - Black. I can just say the car is soooo him.

Dear Future Mr. Imam,
I don't want you to feel burdened in order to just provide me with luxurious life. I am contented enough with whatever things that you are able to provide me. I just need your TLC, and most importantly pamper me with your advices, soothing words, and your patience. Insya Allah I believed in you that you can be the right Imam for our family.